Trying threes

Everyone talks about the terrible twos but you hardly hear a thing about the trying threes. If you ask me the two's are a breeze compared to the three's. Bring back the twos I say, I can handle that.

Zack is being sooooo challenging. He is driving me insane and its so hard to stay calm. All he does his pick, pick, pick and try to press buttons. He is much worse of a night when James comes home, he likes to roll him and it works. James doesn't understand that that is what he is after, a reaction. He also knows that James doesn't follow through on his threats.

Nothing is working, I am trying to be consistent. I put him in his room tonight and he trashed it. I have 10 nappy boxes of baby cloths in his cupboard and he pulled every one of them out and pulled all the cloths out. I am telling you his whole room was like 30cm high in cloths. Now I have the lovely task of sitting down and sorting through all the cloths and putting them back into the right box by size, fun.

Someone please tell me the end is near, like very soon.

One of those days

After 3 hours of broken sleep last night (Ash went to bed 3.30ish), today has been one of those days.
- Up at 6.30 with Ash for good.
- find ants all through the cupboard bc somehow the brown sugar got spilt.
- Kids wingy and whiny all day.
- Zack in a mood trying to keep him happy was hard, I was so worried he was going to wake Ash up.
- Zack had 30 minutes sleep only took him that long to go to sleep and the whole time Ash screamed looking for me.
- Because he had such a little sleep his Pop (my dad) wasn't home like I told him he would be when he got up so we had tears, it was a long hour wait till he got home.
- Pop finally got home we went up there and our dog gets out (at least he came to mum and dads house) I took him home thought we found where he is getting out, got almost all the way up there again and he came up behind me again. Next time we watched where he was getting out so he hopefully that will stop for now.

So so so so so so so tired.

Bed ,how I miss you!

What I would give to be in bed right now. What I'd give for just a few minutes sleep tonight. Its now 2.34am and I am still up with Ash. At least he has stopped screaming and arching his back in pain. Now he is happy playing on the floor. Whats with that? I just want you to go to bed and sleep till morning. PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU!!!

Car restraints

Kids are ment to be in car restraints people. The last two weeks while dropping and picking Zack up at preschool there are been 2 different people driving in with there kids not in a car seat. Last week the guy had a 3-4 year old in the front of the car. This week another guy drove in with a child who didn't even look 2 yet and the preschooler in the back seat of the car. I didn't look closely enough to see if he had seat belts on them. It makes me want to say its illegal not to have them in a car seat, surely you want to keep your children as safe as possible. I find it very sad how many people don't care about something so important.

speechless....You're a great parent!!!

I was talking to my niece yesterday and she told me something I still am having trouble believing. My BIL (nieces father, James brother) had rang them wanting them to come to his house for the day of one of my nieces birthday, to go out for lunch. When they said no we are going to Newcastle he went off. He called his eldest daughter a slag, his youngest daughter an asshole and then went on about there mother (his ex wife) and his ex wifes family. A sorry you NEVER EVER call your children names like this. No wonder they want nothing to do with him.

She said he went on about them having another family too. She told him it doesn't feel like it. They like to put them and the other side of there family down too. MIL has always called there other nan etc. names. Any decent human being knows you shouldn't/don't do this. You especially don't do it to the children. It is the number one rule in a divorce to not put the other parent etc down. BUT TO ACTUALLY PUT YOUR OWN CHILD DOWN is DISGUSTING. Really makes me want to have nothing to do with him. It really disgusts me!!! No wonder I am the only one in this family they will talk with (oh and don't worry it pisses MIL off). They know I will back there mother up any day. I miss spending time with there mother and them, she was the only thing that kept me sane while putting up with the bad family.

Anyway I am taking the boys up tomorrow to see them for my nieces birthday. James won't like it because it means I will talk to Fiona, but I don't care. He says I can go see her but for me not to do it behind his back, like he can tell me what to do HA! HA! I think it depends on his mood on how he will take it, but I am going no matter what. I can't wait to see them, I haven't seen them since Christmas and I haven't seen there mother in much longer.

What a lovely caring family they are.

Gee James' family are so caring to each other. James has been telling me in the last few months about how his sister and brother are worried about what they are getting when there parents die. They are acting like it is going to happen soon. Where I wouldn't mind, I can't believe there own kids are thinking about it. I don't ever want to think about my parents dying.

SIL was pissed that BIL was getting a new trailer for his truck (he is in business with his parents) why? well because his parents where buying it from there money so BIL ex-wife can't get anything from it (as property etc hasn't been finalised) which would mean thats less money she will get.

BIL is pissed because he wants to sell his fathers truck and buy a new one, actually Jim says he wants all new gear. Why? well because he gets all the gear from the business and he wants stuff that cost alot of money. It doesn't matter that the truck his father drives is his pride and joy, who cares its not worth enough money.

If you ask me they both want to stop worrying as I think other SIL will be left with most of it from MIL anyway. James isn't worried he says he doesn't want anything, he wants to feel that he got everything we have through our/(his at the moment) hard work. Oh shit there will be shit fights when they do pass away, they are all selfish people.

Sick household

I hate when the kids a sick, I feel so helpless. I just want to make them all better. They are not terribly sick, just a cold but it has ment 2 night so far with next to no sleep for me and I don't feel the best either. Sore throat, headaches, ear ache and snuffly nose YUCK!!!

I spent all Sat night up with Ashton sleeping on the rocker recliner until 4am because the only place he could/would sleep was in my arms and no in my arms laying in bed would not do. He woke every 30 minutes or so because his nose was blocked. At 4am his nose seemed to clear with some saline drops. I put him down, he woke 2 times from then to 6.30 but would go into his bed so that ment me in my bed, even if no longer than 5 minutes after I got there Zack came in. I just let him sleep with us because I was so tired. Last night I was up to both of them at 10 times.

Mice

I HATE MICE! They freak me out to no end. Since we have ripped up the carpet ready to put the rest of the flooring down, hense taken the railing down there is a hole in the floor and they must be getting in there bc we have never had mice before now. I am loosing my mind. They are clever little buggers I can't catch one on the trap no matter how much I try. The cat has caught some, but I want him to catch more. I can't find any (ie droppings-besides the cat catching them) of them being around but I can hear them in our room of all places of a night. Last night it was freaking me out so much I just couldn't sleep in the room. I went and slept with Zack.

I feel so dirty knowing they are around and its driving me insane that I can't catch them. I just want them gone now before it becomes a huge problem.

So I have been searching for what besides stupid traps (can't poison them bc it will poison my cat and I don't want that). So I have ordered myself some pure peppermint oil, am about to go buy some moth balls as soon as Ashton wakes up and have told James he needs to pull his finger out to complete the floor so the holes are gone.

Housework

This is what I feel like at the moment. I don't feel like I can keep up. The boys make a mess quicker than I can clean. I am so sick of doing the same thing every day. Before a messy house didn't bother me much, but right now it drives me crazy. It stresses me out and makes me want to burst into tears. James is no help, he probably makes more mess than the boys. I am over it, I am so tired (I was up every hour to Ashton last night) and I have no motivation to get up and clean something that is just going to look like cr@p again in a few hours and like a disaster by tomorrow morning. I truely think I am about to loose it. I HATE HOUSEWORK!!!

Quiet toddler

If you have a quiet toddler 90% of the time it means they are up to no good. It crosses my mind that hmmm I haven't heard Zack for a while....and I instantly think OMG what mess is he making. I caught him yesterday with his fathers PAID stamp. He wasn't so impressed when i had to scrub his face, legs and feet clean last night because he had preschool today.

But the other 10% of the time when he is not up to no good while being quiet he is doing things like building a farm that I usually help him do. He came running out to me so proud asking "mummy come look at the farm I built all by myself" when I went in and told him how clever he was and how proud of him I was he looked at me with shear love and said I am clever aren't I. My heart just melted.
Here is pic's of the farm he built all by himself.

Oh Zack you keep my on my toes but I love you so much, my clever boy!

Such good news

Two post in one day wow, but I just heard the best news. I am sooooo happy. My cousin is expecting their first child. It is so exciting because they have been trying for a LONG time and have had uncountable (to me not to them I am sure) miscarriages. They have done IVF and nothing was working. They ended up falling naturally this time and she is over 3 months, and everything is looking good. I hope it stays that way.

They are the nicest couple and deserve this so much. I can't express how happy I am for them.

Sleep LOL!!!

James can sleep anywhere and sleep through ANYTHING. I have never seen such a deep sleeper or someone who can go to sleep so quickly. It quite annoys me that I can't go to sleep as easily as he does. I had a winge about James going to sleep before putting Zack to bed the other day.

Well last night Zack came out of the bath and I asked him what his father was doing and Zack said he is having a bath, I thought ok and proceeded to dress Zack. After what felt like ages I went to see what was taking him so long and I could hear snoring. I got angry because I had decided he had gone from the bath to bed and fallen asleep again, but when I looked in the room he wasn't there. He was asleep in the bath, his mouth and eyes were just out of the water, ears covered. I cracked up and ran to get the camera took photos (that I really want to post but am going to be nice) and started laughing really hard. Still he didn't wake. I ended up splashing water over his face in which he woke up spattering because water went up his noes. He is bloody lucky he didn't drown he sleeps so soundly.

Ashton's first haircut

My baby is growing way to fast. Well actually he so isn't a baby anymore, he is getting such a big boy. I have been holding out on giving Ashton his first haircut for months and months. Mum has been at me since before I got my new camera but my excuse was I don't have a camera to photograph the moment. Then I kept accidently on purpose forgetting the camera. BUT the time had come, his hair looked so scruffy he needed it done.

He sat on his poppy's lap with the cape on, while nanny (who is a hairdresser) cut his hair and I took photos. He was pretty good really, but alot of the time had a look on his face asking nan "what the hell are you doing to my head, leave me alone". He was very tired to because his lovely brother had woken him up after 15 minutes of his first nap of the day and of course he wouldn't go back to sleep, so its a wonder he was so good. You can tell he was tired in the photos.

Poppy what is she doing to me?

Hair all chopped.

Going to bed routine

James has started this routine with Zack that before bed they watch a movie together. Which was fine, it was some daddy and Zack time and they needed that. Now it is just getting on my nerves. His bed time was getting later and later which annoyed me because I had him in such a good routine of going to bed at 8.30pm.

BUT tonight is going to be the last time this routine happens because James keeps falling asleep and I go to go to bed (11pm has been the latest) and Zack is still up watching the damn movie. So I end up putting him to bed anyway. I have been saying to him for ages now that he needs to be in bed by 8.30 but no he doesn't listen. He wonders why I get cranky with him. Night time when they are in bed is my only "me" time and I don't want to spend it putting Zack to bed at 10pm because James has fallen asleep and not done it yet.

To good to be true

Yes I was right, it was to good to be true. The work was going to get us ahead but MIL doesn't want that to happen. She wants us to have to rely on her. Well sorry I would rather go bankrupted before I would ever ask her for any type of help.

She informed James yesterday that he is only being paid wages for this work. He got the work for them, he took time out of his Saturday that should have been spent with us to go look at the job. He is the one doing all the dealing with the guy. But hey who cares they are taking all the money, we get not even 1/5 of the money. Oh and if you work a public holiday you don't get any more money because you are working for family. Funny how it works one way but not the other way.

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!

Selfish BIL

James got onto this work, with the trucks but since we don't have our own truck has to use his parents. He ask's his father and he says yes go for it. James tells his mother he will give them 25% of what we make for using the truck. You would think that being his own family and giving the fact that he works his ass off for next to nothing for them they would let us have all the money that he has worked long (13 hours) days for, but no MIL and BIL wouldn't allow that. His father would do it for us, but they wouldn't listen to him for a minute.

James tells BIL about this work and BIL says oh well if it is going to be 3 months worth I will go do it, Ah no we need the money, you don't as MIL buys anything and everything for him (like he decided while shopping one day that he want s a revved up commodore ute and he buys it then and there). Then he tells James that no he won't be getting 80% of what he makes he will be working for wages. He still thinks James is working for wages, James tells me he isn't. I keep telling him he needs to make sure he isn't but he is to scared to ask him mum about it.

I wish James would go and get a weekly paying job so we know what is coming in and when. This not know when he working and getting paid is stressing me out and it stresses him out.

learning to sew

Is sewing hard to learn to do? I have an idea for something to make and sell but I need to be able to sew. I also need a sewing machine to be able to sew, but I think my aunty has one that I am sure she will lend me. The thing I want to make isn't going to be difficult, well I just need to learn to sew straight lines, that could be difficult for me. I really want to give this a go. Fingers crossed I am clever enough!

Get over it!

GET OVER IT! YOU ARE BEING A DICK! What the bloody hell does it matter anyway. You won't believe the truth!

That is all for now!

Brain not functioning!

Yesterday I went shopping for mum's mothers present. I had to get mum's present, bread for dad and nappies. I dropped Zack off with dad at work to have fun with the turkeys so it was just me and Ash, easy! I got mum's present that we had planned and I found the cutest coffee mug with a cat on it so got it too. Well I broke the hand off the cup no longer then 5 minutes after buying it. Then I got home and smashed it in several pieces so the coffee mug was not ment to be. I TOTALLY forgot the bread and the nappies!!!!!

Then in the afternoon I had a doctors appointment because my health fund wanted a form filled out about my gall bladder. Last night (6pm) mum asked me if I had made and appointment yet and she reminded me I had an appointment at 3.45pm. I had to ring this morning and apologize for not turning up and make another appointment.

My brain just isn't working on so little sleep. Ashton is getting up 6 or so times a night then for good at 6am. Zack is getting up at least 2 times a night but the other night it was 4. So it was 10 times I was up that night. Zack for some reason won't have James at the moment, well its been a long time now and it is not worth having him cry and wake Ashton up so I just get up to him as well. I am a walking zombie!!

Want to be a WAHM

I want to become a Work at home mum. I look all the time for something. I am hoping something pops up soon because money is getting tight. I only need to make enough for a fortnightly home loan payment and we will be cruisey.

I am finding it much harder to leave the boys this time around. I found it much easier with Zack because I only had to leave him with my mum and I trusted her. This time she is working so she can't have him and the thought of leaving him with anyone else terrifies me.

I would be proud to be a WAHM!! fingers crossed something pops up soon!