My princess day - On Kate and Will day

I decided since the day is finally here and all the wrap we have watched about the upcoming wedding of Kate and Will I will post some of my favourite photos of the day I was a princess. I can't post my favourite (and ALL of my honeymoon ones :-( ) because I lost it when my computer at the time died (PLEASE BACK UP YOUR PHOTOS I have learnt my lesson) I was devastated, took it to an expert but they couldn't get the ones I wanted they were able to retrieve some that were not my wedding photos. I still have my professional ones though.

Family Day!!!!

Today we had a family day and what a great day it was. We took the kids to a wildlife park and they had a ball. There was 1 kangaroo who followed us up and back through the fence. He let us pat him and everything. Zack was pretty chuffed with him/her, it seemed to really like Zack, I tried to get my photo taken with it and it jumped further up the fence to where Zack was. We got to pat the Koala's too. The lady told us that they sell the Koala poo. She said they do all sort of things with it, some people even make earrings out of it and sell it to the tourist YUCK!

I did almost have a meltdown when we got there I went to take my first photo and realised I had left my memory card in the computer. I couldn't believe it and felt like crying. After seeing a few animals and some perfect photo shots I remembered I had my video camera in the camera bag that had a memory card in it and it fit YAY. So pics.

Our friend that followed us

Emus

Osrich

Dingo

Friend again

Koala we got to pat

Echidna who was itchy

IL only grandparents when they feel like it!

So Yesterday I posted about easter with the good family, the bad family DIDN'T EVEN BOTHER or WANT TO see the kids. I am sooooo pissed!!! FIL was even here to drop James off from work but just drove away, didn't even give us time to go out and see him. AND in the morning when they had to pick James up for work MIL didn't come instead she sent SIL (with whom she does everything with). SIL gave the boys an easter present but they didn't even bother to come see the boys. They don't care one bit about our kids. James has said it time and time again, yet he runs around and does everything they say.

Like this morning he took Zack down there to keep them happy. She gave Zack the showbag she bought him that she has had for a week but hasn't bothered to bring it to him and has been waiting for us to take him down there (prob because she doesn't want to see me). BUT what does Ashton get NOTHING and this is a BIG PET HATE of mine. They play favourites and are not afraid to show it. Everyone knows who the favourite child is. Who the favourite grandchild is and then who is the prefered sibling in each family. Yes at the moment it doesn't matter much because Ash is so young but soon enough it will and I will NOT have it. If she doesn't want to get something for Ash she doesn't get anything for Zack. I have seen it happen with my nieces and its horrible.

Easter with the good family

What a great easter I had this year with the family. Ashton loved his first easter. He so badly wanted to have some chocolate but mean mummy didn't want to be up all night with him, with a tummy ache (2 times in the last week I have given him a little and we have had shocking nights, may have been a coincidence but I didn't feel like testing it tonight). Here are some photos from our day.

I wish you would take this paper off mummy

                                                            

Eggs hidden for eater egg hunt

Easter hunt

My dad playing with the kids, he will never stop this, he use to do this with us too.

My sister and Ash

Playing soccer

Zack and dad resting after playing soccer

Zack and his cousins eating eggs under the tramp

Some of the family relaxing after a big yummy lunch

My favourite caramel eggs YUMMO!!!

The kids eggs minus the easter hunt eggs and the ones that didn't make it to the photo

Playing on the skooter

Spent to much money this week

I have spent sooooo much money this week, not only did I get my new DSLR (which I love) but my lap top got broken so I went and got a new lap top too. I told myself I couldn't afford it (even on interest free because no way do we have the cash) but I soooo couldn't live without it. I was sitting there and all of a sudden I thought I can't do this I need my computer. I know I am sad, James even told me to do it, and I think it is because he knew he couldn't deal with me when i didn't have my computer time. LOL! In my defense it is my relax time being on the computer.

Here is why we needed a new computer, our screen got broken and it wasn't from me and yes I was mad because it was the best computer I have ever had.

The worse thing to say to a man?

Yes I think I said it. The worse thing any women can say to a man came out of my mouth. The look of hurt hit his face and I instantly regretted it. I kept thinking to myself, Why did I say that? Why did I say that? I am still saying it to myself. He has asked since about it and.....Oh why did I say it? As soon as I said it I wanted to hug him, but I was just so cranky with him I made out that I didn't regret it but really I feel so bad.....Oh shit!!!

My new camera

                                                                           Sony A55

So finally my old camera died, I have been waiting for so long for it to happen. When James was watching the boys Zack got it and broke the battery compartment. YAY new camera for me. So after lots of research I had almost decided on the Cannon 550. BUT yesterday I went to get it and the sales man had both the Cannon and the Sony but said he used his Sony more. After going over how to use both of them the sony was sooooooo much easier to use. So I decided on that for my first DSLR camera.

I still have ALOT to learn. I am currently still just pointing and shooting. I need to do a photography course or something because I want to be able to take unreal photos. I just have to learn all the terms they use. Here are some I have taken.

Zack

Ashton

View from our house

A flower

Why I love James!!!

I was thinking yesterday while putting Zack to bed how I always winge and whine about James and make out that he is so horrible. Its not fair on him because he isn't I seem to just concentrate on the negatives in here and they are all to do with his family so maybe its his family thats the biggest negative. How I wish we could rid of them. arrrrrrr it would be bliss LOL.

So my list of why I love James:
- He loves me
- He is himself around me and he isn't around anyone else
- He works so I don't have to go back to work and doesn't bug me to go back anymore
- I love watching him play with the boys
- He is a good father
- He makes me laugh
- He cuddles me in bed (I love this)
- Since we first met his touch (and no don't think dirty) makes me melt
- He compliment me
- He usually gives in to things I want, if they are within reason (hehehe)
- His smile
- His laugh is addictive
- He makes me feel safe
- He gave me my children
- He couldn't live without me and he tells me

I could go on and on but want to add one very important thing
- I LOVE that a year ago I couldn't have listed half of these and he changed them because he didn't want to loose me.

Walking with the Dinosaurs

In June, James and I are taking the boys to see "Walking with the dinosaurs". Zack just loves dinosaurs and has 1000's of them and plays with them all the time. He is at me all the time to watch dinosaurs on you tube and loves any type of dinosaur tv show. I am sooooo excited to be taking him. I was just looking at some of the photos and it looks unreal. I think I am going to have to buy a new camera to take lots of photos of it.

Man sickness- Always so much worse!

This morning, I get up to the boys after being up all night, going to the loo and with Ashton. James says to me oh I don't feel well. I reply with yeah well neither do I, but someone has to get up to the kids. So he proceeds to stay in bed till 10.30am (I can't remember the last time I have slept later then 8.30am, let alone a full night sleep like he gets).

I walked into the bedroom to get cloths for a shower and he says to me "I don't know why I got it so bad" I turned and said to him "you haven't even been to the bloody toilet, you have a headache take a panadol". He stayed in bed while I looked after the kids and went to the toilet several times.

Its always so much worse for men then for the women. Still till this moment he hasn't been to the toilet, he has been eating I haven't ate since 10.30am yesterday but he is so much sicker than I am. LOL you could just strangle them.

IL arrrgghhh

Guess what I have been suffering from since 1pm today. Yes you guessed right. Bloody SIL!!!! Not happy at all Jan!!!

I was so looking forward to going out for dinner for my dads birthday and actually being able to eat something since my gall bladder has gone. BUT nooooo I still couldn't eat anything bc of the bloody IL's. They will be the death of me.

Are you Stupid

Oh they drive me insane. James says don't get cranky with me I didn't know. But lets face it if he got cranky with them and told them off just once, he would know. Zack has spent a day and a half down there with the IL's bc his cousins are up as I have posted. I said something to James about them not coming here. oh he goes I found out today why SIL hasn't been to our place. I go why and his answer was because SIL has bad diarrhea and doesn't want to give Ashton it. Which is good, BUT instead they insist on asking Zack to go down there and they tell us now after Zacks been going down there. So what I suppose its ok to give it to Zack to give to Ashton. Yeah that sounds like a bloody good idea! Arrrgghhh!

Why do I have to be the bad guy?

I HATE THIS!!! Why do I have to agree to things that I don't. Our son does not have hysterical fits about not wanting to go anywhere, instead of the IL's. Yes it doesn't happen every time but it does at least 50% of the time, actually probably more than that. So why should he have to go if he gets himself into that state when it is so out of character for him. It breaks my heart and I just want to say to James if he doesn't want to go then why should he have to. Yes I know that sometimes you have to do things you don't want to, but this is something he doesn't have to do. He was down there all day yesterday. His cousins are up so he should want to go down there to see them, that is special. It can not be very good down their.

Then James starts on him well if you don't go down you don't go to other nan and pops today. How is that FAIR?? He see's my parents every day and he still would rather go their then to his parents, something is up their. So then he says ok well you stay here, Zack settles down then a minute later he says put your shoes on we are going and he starts again. James is to scared of his family not to take him down their. Why are they more important than your own son. I was taking him to the car and he was saying don't make me mum, don't do it, don't put me in the car. It broke my heart. I feel like such a bad mum to make him just so James and I don't fight. This is horrible, bad mummy moment here and yes I know I have posted that if this happens again I will be saying to James he isn't going.

Yes I know this is jumbled but I am sooooo cranky with James, worried about my little boy and feel so bad that I don't stand up for Zack.

GET READY....Its holiday time, yay fun...NOT!!!!

Get ready for the vent post to come your way!! Its holidays which mean the trouble making SIL will be down. Fights will start! GREAT!! Oh how I love school holiday time. I wish we had money because if we did I would be leaving town while she is down and taking my kids with me.

18kg down 6kg to go

Through all my painful gall attacks and me being unable or maybe unwilling to eat anything with much, if any fat in it I have lost 18kg's. Everyone keeps telling me how good I look and gee I feel good too. My confidence have gone up big time. For the first time ummmm probably ever I am lighter than James. He was such a tiny thing at school, beer done him in and he has the biggest pregnant looking, beer gut.

Today Zack asked me "did you marry daddy?" I answered yes darling see that picture up there is when mummy married daddy. He then asked me if I still have my pretty dress, when I told him I did he asked me to put it on. I thought hmmmm I will try and it fit. I am actually lighter by 2-4kg's then when I  got married but after kids my body shape has changed DRAMATICALLY. For the first time in ever I don't have thunder thighs. I love not having thunder thighs, I can wear shorts and jeans look nice. Oh and my dress looked beautiful still.

6kgs more is all I need to reach my ultimate goal. My goal since I can remember. I hope I can do it? Its harder now that my gall has gone because I don't have to be as careful. I can't eat as much any more and my entire thought on food has changed. I don't have to eat at meal times, if I am not hungry I don't eat. My plan is to start running as soon as I am not as sore. I actually love the idea of becoming fit as well. I would love to be toned as well.