When will he think of his son before his mummy???

The family you chose to have, the day you married me and had our kids. We should now be your no.1 not your mummy and brother!!!

James wants Zack to go down to his mothers on Tuesday's that I work. All fine (beside I still think she is a child abuser and I don't want my kids anywhere near her) but she can't get him to sleep and it is the day before pre-school so he NEEDS his sleep, which James understands. So James wants him to go down and see if she can get him to sleep. I know she can't her saying "you show nanny how you are a good boy and go to sleep" doesn't work. I have trouble getting him to sleep after he has been down there because she insists on giving him b!oody poppers that send him high as a kite, there is something in them. I have asked James since he was little to ask her not to give them to him but no can't upset mummy. I say to James she won't tell us the truth about him having a sleep or not and he says we will know. So he knows they lie to us about him all the time.

I don't know how he expects me to take Ashton to my aunty to play with her little girl who is Zacks world and say no sorry you can't stay here you have to go to nans and be bored down there. He never wants to go down there any other time, James still plays the do you want to come for a drive with dad, when he asks where he says surprise because he knows he will say no if he says nans. Zack asks me to go down there so I can play with him when he has to go down there as it is, hense why they don't like me down there because he wants me and not them. If he says no I want to stay at my aunties I won't be taking him down there.

I wish he would think of Zack, he know he needs his sleep the day before he goes to preschool but mummy always comes first. It sickens me.

We all survived first day back.

So we all survived my first day back at work. I am exhausted as Ashton decided to have a terrible night and let me sleep like 4 hours. Thanks for that Ash! I actually had a good day enjoyed it. Ashton survived being away from me which I knew he would. He had much shorter sleeps and is soooooo clingy now, it kinda makes you think is it worth it, but I suppose the money will be.

Back to work

Tomorrow I am having a meeting with my old boss so she can tell me what I need to do for the 5 weeks I will be working for her. I am excited, nervous and scared all at the same time. The thought of leaving Ashton is terrifying, I hope he copes ok! I hope he doesn't become to clingy or cry for me the whole time I am gone. I would feel terrible for Ashton and mum and my aunty who are looking after the boys for me.

I am excited to get some adult conversation (even though I am going to teach kids LOL). I miss my old work mates and it will be so good to catch up with them. It will be good to be out of the house for a little while doing something for me. The extra money will also be very good.

I am scared that I will have trouble coping as Ashton still isn't sleeping well (we were up every 30 minutes to an hour last night, but that was a really bad night). That I can't keep up with working and keeping the house clean and of course looking after the kids. James says he will help but truthfully he doesn't know how to and he won't (well maybe he does know how to jut doesn't).

After the long weekend I start fingers crossed it will go smoothly. At least it is for only 5 weeks.

Selfish BIL

James got onto this work, with the trucks but since we don't have our own truck has to use his parents. He ask's his father and he says yes go for it. James tells his mother he will give them 25% of what we make for using the truck. You would think that being his own family and giving the fact that he works his ass off for next to nothing for them they would let us have all the money that he has worked long (13 hours) days for, but no MIL and BIL wouldn't allow that. His father would do it for us, but they wouldn't listen to him for a minute.

James tells BIL about this work and BIL says oh well if it is going to be 3 months worth I will go do it, Ah no we need the money, you don't as MIL buys anything and everything for him (like he decided while shopping one day that he want s a revved up commodore ute and he buys it then and there). Then he tells James that no he won't be getting 80% of what he makes he will be working for wages. He still thinks James is working for wages, James tells me he isn't. I keep telling him he needs to make sure he isn't but he is to scared to ask him mum about it.

I wish James would go and get a weekly paying job so we know what is coming in and when. This not know when he working and getting paid is stressing me out and it stresses him out.

Want to be a WAHM

I want to become a Work at home mum. I look all the time for something. I am hoping something pops up soon because money is getting tight. I only need to make enough for a fortnightly home loan payment and we will be cruisey.

I am finding it much harder to leave the boys this time around. I found it much easier with Zack because I only had to leave him with my mum and I trusted her. This time she is working so she can't have him and the thought of leaving him with anyone else terrifies me.

I would be proud to be a WAHM!! fingers crossed something pops up soon!

S.T.U.P.I.D Husband

Sorry there is just not another word for him. He makes me so mad. Why does he have to be so...arrrrgghh! Why can't he tell his family where to go? They are so rude to him and just use him. He gets so angry and upset by them but he keeps going back and back for more.

He was ment to be working for them yesterday, put his work off (like usual...ah where does most of your money come from?????your work not work from your parents).THEN his father asks someone else to do the work so James was left high and dry. THEN I just found out today he travels an hour away (to what I though get stuff for his work although he did tell me yesterday most of it won't be ready till Thursday so he has to go back up) BUT he went to get things for his freaken father and the trucks thats all!!!!! S T U P I D!!!

He won't go and get work from this other person bc it would be cutting his family out of some work....ah they don't care about cutting you out of work and lets put it frankly they don't pay you correctly anyway. You winge about how much money we have but you let this happen continually, don't bother winging to me about it, its your own stupid fault.

It all evens out.....uh how????

James much to my disliking often works for his parents as well as his own business. I have started plotting all his hours on the calendar to make sure he gets paid for the days he works. Does he get paid fairly hell no! This is how my so lovely (not) MIL does it:
- $200 a day
- but if he only works a few hours 3-5 he gets $50
- but if he works 16 hours he still gets only $200
- If he works public holidays (12 hours mind you) sorry no you are working for family you don't get double time (arrr how bout helping your sons family who has alot less money then you, you have 10 times the about of money we have)

I was saying to James about how if he only works a few hours he only get $50 but if he works alot of hours he doesn't get any extra and he said his mum says it works out even. UMMMMM uh HOW? maybe if you got $200 for only working a few hours yes (but still probably not since you work many more big hour days then little hour days)

So much for looking out for your family hey. Lovely MIL only cares for herself and just so desperately wants us to fail and have to ask her for money. Well I would rather have my nails pulled out with pliers then ask you for anything!!!!!!!!