Proud moment

I am one proud mummy right now. FINALLY and yes I mean FINALLY Zack has gone to sleep of a night without anyone in with him. Its been 2 nights now. I hope it continues, it makes it so much easier.

The first night I was in with him for a couple of minutes, but Ashton started crying and he didn't want me to wake James up to go in with me. He promised me he would stay in bed, and he did.

The second night james went to go in and he got into trouble. He got his dinosaurs and his teddys and he was going to sleep by himself :-)

When will he think of his son before his mummy???

The family you chose to have, the day you married me and had our kids. We should now be your no.1 not your mummy and brother!!!

James wants Zack to go down to his mothers on Tuesday's that I work. All fine (beside I still think she is a child abuser and I don't want my kids anywhere near her) but she can't get him to sleep and it is the day before pre-school so he NEEDS his sleep, which James understands. So James wants him to go down and see if she can get him to sleep. I know she can't her saying "you show nanny how you are a good boy and go to sleep" doesn't work. I have trouble getting him to sleep after he has been down there because she insists on giving him b!oody poppers that send him high as a kite, there is something in them. I have asked James since he was little to ask her not to give them to him but no can't upset mummy. I say to James she won't tell us the truth about him having a sleep or not and he says we will know. So he knows they lie to us about him all the time.

I don't know how he expects me to take Ashton to my aunty to play with her little girl who is Zacks world and say no sorry you can't stay here you have to go to nans and be bored down there. He never wants to go down there any other time, James still plays the do you want to come for a drive with dad, when he asks where he says surprise because he knows he will say no if he says nans. Zack asks me to go down there so I can play with him when he has to go down there as it is, hense why they don't like me down there because he wants me and not them. If he says no I want to stay at my aunties I won't be taking him down there.

I wish he would think of Zack, he know he needs his sleep the day before he goes to preschool but mummy always comes first. It sickens me.

What it is like to sleep at night

Someone bought this http://www.amberdusick.com/woodmouse_loves_crafts/2011/06/what-it-is-like-to-not-sleep-at-night-illustrated-with-crappy-pictures.html to my attention and she is so clever.

It could be me writing it, it really could. I suspect many mother could write it though.

It pisses me so much when James says to me in the mornings when I say I have had 3 hours sleep leave me alone you are not getting any, and he says, well why didn't you wake me? For the record even when I do wake him he usually mumbles some weird crap (like he hasn't loaded the hay yet????? I have no idea dreaming about work I suppose) and then rolls over and goes back to sleep. PLUS the kids just go off if it isn't me. I don't think it is worth Zack screaming because he wants me and waking Ashton up. The last thing I want is 2 kids screaming for me at all hours of the night, so its not worth it!!!

Take a look it gave me a laugh!

Bed ,how I miss you!

What I would give to be in bed right now. What I'd give for just a few minutes sleep tonight. Its now 2.34am and I am still up with Ash. At least he has stopped screaming and arching his back in pain. Now he is happy playing on the floor. Whats with that? I just want you to go to bed and sleep till morning. PLEASE I AM BEGGING YOU!!!

Sleep LOL!!!

James can sleep anywhere and sleep through ANYTHING. I have never seen such a deep sleeper or someone who can go to sleep so quickly. It quite annoys me that I can't go to sleep as easily as he does. I had a winge about James going to sleep before putting Zack to bed the other day.

Well last night Zack came out of the bath and I asked him what his father was doing and Zack said he is having a bath, I thought ok and proceeded to dress Zack. After what felt like ages I went to see what was taking him so long and I could hear snoring. I got angry because I had decided he had gone from the bath to bed and fallen asleep again, but when I looked in the room he wasn't there. He was asleep in the bath, his mouth and eyes were just out of the water, ears covered. I cracked up and ran to get the camera took photos (that I really want to post but am going to be nice) and started laughing really hard. Still he didn't wake. I ended up splashing water over his face in which he woke up spattering because water went up his noes. He is bloody lucky he didn't drown he sleeps so soundly.

Going to bed routine

James has started this routine with Zack that before bed they watch a movie together. Which was fine, it was some daddy and Zack time and they needed that. Now it is just getting on my nerves. His bed time was getting later and later which annoyed me because I had him in such a good routine of going to bed at 8.30pm.

BUT tonight is going to be the last time this routine happens because James keeps falling asleep and I go to go to bed (11pm has been the latest) and Zack is still up watching the damn movie. So I end up putting him to bed anyway. I have been saying to him for ages now that he needs to be in bed by 8.30 but no he doesn't listen. He wonders why I get cranky with him. Night time when they are in bed is my only "me" time and I don't want to spend it putting Zack to bed at 10pm because James has fallen asleep and not done it yet.

Brain not functioning!

Yesterday I went shopping for mum's mothers present. I had to get mum's present, bread for dad and nappies. I dropped Zack off with dad at work to have fun with the turkeys so it was just me and Ash, easy! I got mum's present that we had planned and I found the cutest coffee mug with a cat on it so got it too. Well I broke the hand off the cup no longer then 5 minutes after buying it. Then I got home and smashed it in several pieces so the coffee mug was not ment to be. I TOTALLY forgot the bread and the nappies!!!!!

Then in the afternoon I had a doctors appointment because my health fund wanted a form filled out about my gall bladder. Last night (6pm) mum asked me if I had made and appointment yet and she reminded me I had an appointment at 3.45pm. I had to ring this morning and apologize for not turning up and make another appointment.

My brain just isn't working on so little sleep. Ashton is getting up 6 or so times a night then for good at 6am. Zack is getting up at least 2 times a night but the other night it was 4. So it was 10 times I was up that night. Zack for some reason won't have James at the moment, well its been a long time now and it is not worth having him cry and wake Ashton up so I just get up to him as well. I am a walking zombie!!

Sleepless nights

Oh to have a full nights sleep, it would be total bliss. I can't think of the last time I have had a full nights sleep, I know for sure it was over 7 months ago. Before that I wasn't having a full nights rest either as I was very pregnant and having nightly toilet breaks.

At the moment 3-4 hours strait sleep a night would be wonderful. There is something wrong with Ash and it is starting to worry me. I made a dr appointment for him today but have to wait to the 4th April, which is fricken ridiculous!

He is waking every half and hour to 1.5 hours over night screaming in pain, arching his back and wriggling, turning in my arms in pain. He is so hard to hold and it just breaks my heart seeing him like that. It makes it so much harder when I am so tired and so is he. As soon as I find a position he is comfy in (pain stops) he is asleep within a minute only to wake again very soon.

I hope it stops soon!! :-(