IL arrrgghhh

Guess what I have been suffering from since 1pm today. Yes you guessed right. Bloody SIL!!!! Not happy at all Jan!!!

I was so looking forward to going out for dinner for my dads birthday and actually being able to eat something since my gall bladder has gone. BUT nooooo I still couldn't eat anything bc of the bloody IL's. They will be the death of me.

Are you Stupid

Oh they drive me insane. James says don't get cranky with me I didn't know. But lets face it if he got cranky with them and told them off just once, he would know. Zack has spent a day and a half down there with the IL's bc his cousins are up as I have posted. I said something to James about them not coming here. oh he goes I found out today why SIL hasn't been to our place. I go why and his answer was because SIL has bad diarrhea and doesn't want to give Ashton it. Which is good, BUT instead they insist on asking Zack to go down there and they tell us now after Zacks been going down there. So what I suppose its ok to give it to Zack to give to Ashton. Yeah that sounds like a bloody good idea! Arrrgghhh!

Why do I have to be the bad guy?

I HATE THIS!!! Why do I have to agree to things that I don't. Our son does not have hysterical fits about not wanting to go anywhere, instead of the IL's. Yes it doesn't happen every time but it does at least 50% of the time, actually probably more than that. So why should he have to go if he gets himself into that state when it is so out of character for him. It breaks my heart and I just want to say to James if he doesn't want to go then why should he have to. Yes I know that sometimes you have to do things you don't want to, but this is something he doesn't have to do. He was down there all day yesterday. His cousins are up so he should want to go down there to see them, that is special. It can not be very good down their.

Then James starts on him well if you don't go down you don't go to other nan and pops today. How is that FAIR?? He see's my parents every day and he still would rather go their then to his parents, something is up their. So then he says ok well you stay here, Zack settles down then a minute later he says put your shoes on we are going and he starts again. James is to scared of his family not to take him down their. Why are they more important than your own son. I was taking him to the car and he was saying don't make me mum, don't do it, don't put me in the car. It broke my heart. I feel like such a bad mum to make him just so James and I don't fight. This is horrible, bad mummy moment here and yes I know I have posted that if this happens again I will be saying to James he isn't going.

Yes I know this is jumbled but I am sooooo cranky with James, worried about my little boy and feel so bad that I don't stand up for Zack.

GET READY....Its holiday time, yay fun...NOT!!!!

Get ready for the vent post to come your way!! Its holidays which mean the trouble making SIL will be down. Fights will start! GREAT!! Oh how I love school holiday time. I wish we had money because if we did I would be leaving town while she is down and taking my kids with me.

18kg down 6kg to go

Through all my painful gall attacks and me being unable or maybe unwilling to eat anything with much, if any fat in it I have lost 18kg's. Everyone keeps telling me how good I look and gee I feel good too. My confidence have gone up big time. For the first time ummmm probably ever I am lighter than James. He was such a tiny thing at school, beer done him in and he has the biggest pregnant looking, beer gut.

Today Zack asked me "did you marry daddy?" I answered yes darling see that picture up there is when mummy married daddy. He then asked me if I still have my pretty dress, when I told him I did he asked me to put it on. I thought hmmmm I will try and it fit. I am actually lighter by 2-4kg's then when I  got married but after kids my body shape has changed DRAMATICALLY. For the first time in ever I don't have thunder thighs. I love not having thunder thighs, I can wear shorts and jeans look nice. Oh and my dress looked beautiful still.

6kgs more is all I need to reach my ultimate goal. My goal since I can remember. I hope I can do it? Its harder now that my gall has gone because I don't have to be as careful. I can't eat as much any more and my entire thought on food has changed. I don't have to eat at meal times, if I am not hungry I don't eat. My plan is to start running as soon as I am not as sore. I actually love the idea of becoming fit as well. I would love to be toned as well.

My boys

I love my boys so much! I would go to the moon and back again and again and again (you get me) for my boys. I miss them when they are not with me, people call me sad, but I don't care what they say. Try and hurt my boys and look out! Anyone call my boys names (MIL) watch out evil mum will get them. No one hurts my boys.

My boys love me just as much. They show me all the time, they are such mummies boys. I know it hurts James that they want me not him, but mummy is always better when you are sick, tired, hurt etc.

                                                                  My beautiful Boys!!!

Growing to fast

My boys are growing to fast. It is making me sad, and  a little frighten. Ashton is standing up on everything. He is only 8 months old. He has even started walking around the furniture arrrrrrrrrrrrrrgghhh. I so don't want him to walk early but it looks like he might. God please help me :-) Look at the cheeky monkey!