Stupid ridiculously high power bill

Jump again shit yeah our electricity bill more than doubled from our last electricity billed and and was 4.5 time higher than this time last year. F*** how the hell do they expect us to live when the electricity bill is higher than what James make a week. I am much more careful now with the power but OMG they are talking about it going up again. Well its paid  now after I got an extension and I am not quite sure how I am going to buy food next week but I suppose we will live.

A new car

I have wanted a new car since.....well feels like forever but really its been 5-6 years. We have sold my little uni car, James got a ute for work (he was driving my car and I had his car with the kids). I hate his car. Its a rodeo twin cab and while it has lots of room in the back for all the kids stuff, its rough as hell in the back for the kids and its manual which I hate, oh and it is a bit of a dud of a car and has been since we bought it new.

Anyway I have been asking and looking for a car for years, first James said when you get a job, I got a part time then full time and still no car. You see he wants a Prado, I would love a prado BUT it is so out of our price range even second hand. I try to talk him into something we can afford and he won't budge.

Yesterday on our way out o town we drive past a Prado. We decide to pull over and see how much they have on it. I tell James want to bed $38 000- $45 000 and he goes if so it is ours. I thought ok yeah with what money haha. As we pull up the owner who we know (friends brother) came out and told us he was after $30000 for it. Now there isn't a scratch on it and is very well looked after. I think oh I wish but we are like $10000 short still James why do you insist on wishing and hoping on something we can't afford. James is very excited.

The story goes on...James says dad almost bought me a new ute on Thursday for $10000 at an auction, maybe they will lend us the money and we can pay them back. He said especially for a car for you dad would prob lend it (bc he loves me LOL). THEN I have to think hmmmm as much as I would LOVE a new car do I want the whole we own the car (even though they will only own a1/3 of it). Beth really wants to control us I don't know if I want to give her a chance to have something over us. She wants to keep our car and get rid of an older car they have.

BUT I want to try for our next baby and we need a car that can fit 3 car seats across the back and our current car doesn't, but like I keep telling James why cant we just get a car we can afford.

What a lovely caring family they are.

Gee James' family are so caring to each other. James has been telling me in the last few months about how his sister and brother are worried about what they are getting when there parents die. They are acting like it is going to happen soon. Where I wouldn't mind, I can't believe there own kids are thinking about it. I don't ever want to think about my parents dying.

SIL was pissed that BIL was getting a new trailer for his truck (he is in business with his parents) why? well because his parents where buying it from there money so BIL ex-wife can't get anything from it (as property etc hasn't been finalised) which would mean thats less money she will get.

BIL is pissed because he wants to sell his fathers truck and buy a new one, actually Jim says he wants all new gear. Why? well because he gets all the gear from the business and he wants stuff that cost alot of money. It doesn't matter that the truck his father drives is his pride and joy, who cares its not worth enough money.

If you ask me they both want to stop worrying as I think other SIL will be left with most of it from MIL anyway. James isn't worried he says he doesn't want anything, he wants to feel that he got everything we have through our/(his at the moment) hard work. Oh shit there will be shit fights when they do pass away, they are all selfish people.

To good to be true

Yes I was right, it was to good to be true. The work was going to get us ahead but MIL doesn't want that to happen. She wants us to have to rely on her. Well sorry I would rather go bankrupted before I would ever ask her for any type of help.

She informed James yesterday that he is only being paid wages for this work. He got the work for them, he took time out of his Saturday that should have been spent with us to go look at the job. He is the one doing all the dealing with the guy. But hey who cares they are taking all the money, we get not even 1/5 of the money. Oh and if you work a public holiday you don't get any more money because you are working for family. Funny how it works one way but not the other way.

STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!

learning to sew

Is sewing hard to learn to do? I have an idea for something to make and sell but I need to be able to sew. I also need a sewing machine to be able to sew, but I think my aunty has one that I am sure she will lend me. The thing I want to make isn't going to be difficult, well I just need to learn to sew straight lines, that could be difficult for me. I really want to give this a go. Fingers crossed I am clever enough!

Spent to much money this week

I have spent sooooo much money this week, not only did I get my new DSLR (which I love) but my lap top got broken so I went and got a new lap top too. I told myself I couldn't afford it (even on interest free because no way do we have the cash) but I soooo couldn't live without it. I was sitting there and all of a sudden I thought I can't do this I need my computer. I know I am sad, James even told me to do it, and I think it is because he knew he couldn't deal with me when i didn't have my computer time. LOL! In my defense it is my relax time being on the computer.

Here is why we needed a new computer, our screen got broken and it wasn't from me and yes I was mad because it was the best computer I have ever had.