Sickness in the IL's

Is bad when you don't know whether to believe your husband when he tells me someone in his family is sick. The whole family are a bit sickness obsessed. James use to go to the doctor for absolutely everything and has this big thing that he is dying, it would be so bad it is an anxiety that I have to reassure him about all the time. This comes from their mother who always thinks something is wrong I have heard her say to James "whats wrong with your foot? It doesn't look right you best get to the dr about that". When there is absolutely nothing wrong with it not even sore.

We have had many things wrong with them over the years. Eg. His brother has had osteoporosis and was dying, Jim really had a melt down about this (he didn't), my nephew has had whooping cough, measles etc etc (but he didn't) so many things I have been told they had, to then find out later that they finally went to the dr and its a heat rash or with the osteoporosis they were only checking him for it.

Yesterday James told me his sister has a brain aneurysm, my heart skipped a beat oh no she has two young kids I hope she is ok. I came home and asked some questions and I am none the wiser (this drives me crazy that he never finds anything out) I asked if she was in hospital? No. Has she had a scan is that how she found out? Yes. Why was she having the scan? Don't know. She is going to the hospital today. So I do pray to god she is going to be alright but is it true this time? I hope not, I hope Jim has good news later today and its another one of those jump to conclusions events again.

Sleep

I am sure you all think I am going to winge about my 2 month old and not having any sleep because of him well no its not Ashton its Zack my 2.5 year old. Its soooo not ment to be this way and if I was getting up to Ashton it would be ok. Ash gets up once or twice a night which is better then Zack ever was till the age of 1.5 years old.

Zack has decided that he is going to wake 3-4 times a night. Its driving me insane. I can't see any reason why he is getting up. I have tried eliminating things but its still the same and I am scared its becoming a habit. I want some sleep please. What happened to sleeping through you are a big boy now!!!

School Holidays

When I was working school holidays were something I always counted down to of course. As soon as I had Zack I of course wasn't working and school holidays to me were not the best. It means that the SIL come down and of course brings many emotions.

1. Fear- Because there is usually some kind of fight between them all which in turn makes it a horrible and stressful time for James which in turn makes it horrible for me. Especially when it is James that they gang up on.

2. Frustration- They use to ring up at 7like pm and ask us there for tea. For god sake we have a young child we have had tea or are about to have tea. At the moment I don't need to worry about this but instead they turn up here at tea time. This REALLY pisses me off and I know it annoys Jim too. A couple of weekend ago when they were down they were well aware we hadn't had tea and they didn't leave till 9pm. Way past Zacks bed time. Disrespectful if you ask me.

3. Stress- Now the stress about Zack having to go down to the IL's, well just around MIL. Now that I am"not welcome there anymore" he goes without me (which is another thing that pisses me) and now I can't protect him when she calls him names. AND most probably talk horribly about me and my family to him. (OK this probably isn't happening YET but it is happening with my SIL {that has split with James's brother} she bag's there grandmother to them and started there mother now. They are old enough to know to tell her off (12 and 14).

4. Scheming- I scheme ANY WAY I CAN to stop Zack (and use to be myself) from having to go there. I use to stay in bed and breastfeed him to put him back to sleep so we didn't have to go there. Just this past weekend I made pancakes so he wouldn't get there in time to see MIL bc she would be at church. I have become the master schemer but there is always times I have nothing:-(

5. Paranoia- I clean, clean, clean the house more than I would any other time, because I know they will be here more often and I think they are judgemental. It shouldn't worry me but it does for some reason. James always tells me I am being silly but I can't help it. So I am currently doing a big clean up (well as big as you can with a cat napping 2month old and a 2.5 year old).

There is soooooo many more emotions but it makes me sad that I feel like this just bc the IL will be more in my life during the holidays they are ment to be relaxing!

Spring is here

Spring is here and what a lovely spring day it was here. We all spent the morning outside, Zack playing, Ashton snoozing, me cleaning the entertainment area and James working in his shed. Aarrrr it was nice and now the entertainment area looks like someone owns it!

My best friend commented on facebook that she was p!ssed because it was raining on her child free day. I had to rub it in that it was such a lovely day here but secretly I was jelous she was having a child free day.

Oh and I did jinx myself, yesterday, the lovely MIL blessed us with her presence. Although Zack just wanted her to go so he could go down the back to play as we were just going down as she turned up and I told him we could go down after she left. So he promptly asked are you going now, LOL.

Long time no see WOHOO!!

I haven't seen the lovely MIL for over a week now WOHOO!! I wonder what is happening there. Jim doesn't seem to be ringing her much either. Although I have had a visit from my 2 SIL but I can deal with that, they don't call my children and husband names and I only see them when they are visiting from their home town which isn't often at all. Although they tell my husband stupid things I can deal with that. It make me so curious when I don't see her for a while to know what they(James and MIL) are arguing about now or what she has been a b!tch about anyway.

I bet I have jinxed myself now and I will see her soon. Gee I hope not, fingers crossed. Arrrrr to dream about never seeing her again! I can only wish and pray!

Friends

My best friend from high school is still my best friend. We got married 3 weeks apart, honeymooned at the same place, had our first child 11 months apart, our 2nd child 5 months (well will be when she has her 2nd in Dec) apart. I have always just snuck in doing all these things first. All besides moving away, I still live in the town we grew up in and don't really want to leave its a great town to raise kids.

BUT just this week I have been missing her alot. I informed her that she needs to move back. She told me she would move herself and the farm just for me. Bloody farmers wife LOL! Just to have her close by to visit and talk to would be nice. We talk every week but at the moment doesn't feel like enough and when she has her second child, I think she will feel the same. She is much more isolated then I am.

Good friends are hard to find, I am lucky to have her in my life! :-)

So Cranky today

So I got up on the wrong side of the bed today, actually as soon as I woke up I wished I was all alone, with a spotless house. In reality I have my 2 boys, (1 whom doesn't feel like sleeping today) to look after and a pig sty of a house GREAT!

Taking 1 step outside and my mood gets even worse. OMG really James needs to stay home for an entire weekend and stop doing stuff for everyone else and do something for his family. You know us whom is ment to be his number 1's. The yard is 10 times worse and I have been asking him to clean the front verandah for weeks now. To which I have been told I will do it this afternoon for you several times.

The inside of the house is looking better besides having to carry around Ashton while doing it. Still lots that needs doing though. But I have decided that the front verandah I will be doing this afternoon bc I am sick of people coming into out house being welcomed by his shit. It looks like we live in a dump. I will be throwing all the shit in his shed.

One day I might have cupboard doors that don't fall off when I open them. The holes in the wall may be fixed etc etc. I know if I change my name to Phil or (his) mummy they will get done right away.

Now off to tend to these children and continue cleaning or I am going to loose my mind.